"Nature"

I'm not gonna lie, I waited to do my nature experiment until today. But whatever, it worked. My nature experiment was really eye opening, because of all the mixed emotions I felt about it afterwards. But I'll get to that later.

Basically, I came home from a long night after winter formal expecting to arrive at home obligated to sit down and tell my dad how the limo was, how everyone looked, etc. But I pulled up to the house and his car wasnt there. Nobody was home, and I was really confused and tired and so I thought about all of the homework that I put off and that I felt like I had to do right then and there. I then thought that this was the perfect time to do my nature experiment, especially because I wouldn't have to explain to anyone what I was doing or where I was going because I was home alone!

So I drove to the beach, and there was some surfing photoshoot thing, so I drove farther north to a viewpoint where nobody was. It was perfect for the nature thing. It was cold and cloudy and I was really tired, so I stayed in my car... sorry Emerson. But I ignored the fact that I was in my car and just took in everything around me. Pleased with the fact that I was doing homework while relaxing I really got into it.

Even though I was in a plain space, my mind still managed to try and think about a million things at once. Over time just observing the peace these miscellaneous things roaming in my brain seemed to go away. But it bothers me that it takes effort in today's world to simply clear your mind - something that should be done with ease in a personal way. But because of society this is a difficult task, and it takes somehting as calming as nature or silence to aid one in doing this. So even though I reached a calm state during this experiment, I was still puzzled by the fact that I had to be alone at the beach in order to be tranquil. However I managed to push that fact aside and just keep my mind as empty as possible.

I didn't let myself fall asleep even though I was really really exhausted from the night before, because I really wanted to embrace the experiment. I mean it's not every day that you can just relax for 30 minutes and be completing part of an english project at the same time. So I didn't take that for granted and in result I notcied many things about where I was which reminded me of a lot of stuff. The ocean was dark dark blue with choppy waves giving off a mist with every movement. At the time this seemed boring, but once I thought abuot it more it was really beautiful. People usually admire the ocean when its crystal clear and great weather, but because the weather wasn't like that today I learned to embrace what I could admire. The image of the imperfect ocean was compelling because it applied to life in a larger sense in that not everyone is perfect, and you have to take them in your life for who you are. This kind of turned into a weird extended metaphor, but observing the ocean on this cloudy day this morning made me come to that conclusion.

Also, when I was sitting in my car two different ladies walked past me. One of them was jogging with her puppy. Her face looked really content as if she was accomplishing something (which she was). The other walked past me slowly, smoking a cigarrette. Her face was more troubling to me, she looked like she was really disturbed by something and stressed out. Even though this isn't really a part of nature, these two women made me think about the fact that nature can be an outlet for everyone. It is really important in our lives, but only if we use it properly. It can be used to your advantage whether you are happy about jogging with a puppy, sad and smoking a cigarrette, or just tired after a long night with friends. There are lots of different people in the world, but there is only one Mother Nature and we should embrace her when we can to help us healthily escape from everything.